you know, I have to hold you all slightly accountable
the excitement you get out of a chase
the prayer for a crash and burn
the hope of nu clear implosiveexplsiison
I walked around today
often thinking of my loved ones
and I know that a few of you root for me
while a few others are saying: h e always does this...
it's that bi=pooper thing
in his noggin in and out = ais;ghel; headbang
long, long walk today
came full circle
saw so many cops today I walked down a deep canal and popped up on the other side of karma burps there's a health plan to one side of me and a guidebook on the other qhwrw am I sorry, I meant . where am I? what am I?
I don't know what else to say at the moment it's odd to be so detached from life and yet it's very freeing tambien
I don't even remember where I've been because I no longer miss any of this present moment...
random book draw at the current library: Forever is the Worst Long Time by Camille Pagan but, right next to it was The English Patient, which is a wonderful story
leave it all and write poetry from the ether I said I wanted to fly into a black hole well.I.made.My.Own.Black.Hole and I'm loving the distance in it it's rising me up in a sort of gravitational way
and to all 'da haters... c'mon, don't spend your energy that way\ none of us really want life to end but some of us know it cant...
nonetheless if I told you god made me do it, you wouldn't believe me and, it's half excuse anyway because there is always a sliver of free will in our lives, unfortunately you can be mad at me call me crazy an accuse me but, fact is: none of you walked away from everything just as the model you adore said to do I got mas balles que tu! and it's freedom so freeing well, you'll never know cause you'rr chicken shit you're scared to liove on your terms chicken... shit.. that IO still lov, regardless of what you think of me right now
PC - I left a bit of a mess, but had to because everyone wants a crash landing and so I had to make it sellable I probably owe you $2K minus the Coach purse and wallet I bought you the day I left sorry, but don't forget I gave you the car acerca $9K. smooches to you and yours you're still amazing as sin
tell my parents to find something else to blame isntaed of the bi bi bi bibiboohi ppoplar polar they can just blame: ME, fucking ME, cause I fucking felt like it and unlike all of you aren't fraid of the fucking consequebces becase freedom I internal internally beating fovere
my heart goes out to all fo you I am a fugitive on the run with a pen for a gun and a lioghter for a flashlight and I'm a walkin the line because you'r emine
Citizen by Rankine ... I put them in my bag - nope, I do not have a membership here yes, I am stealing them I put them in my bag in a discreet corner and then walk out got for a walk around the block with those two authors in my bag...
I re-enter the library, bring them to this computer and here I shall leave them out of place
did I steal or did I not? amI inSAnIe or not?
I am going home for the day, my body hurts a little from all the walking but I like it.
is that insane? that I would keep myself - entertained and laughing - company in the dark of night on a very isolated and lonely road but not in a bad way... I like it, as in, it's healthy for me no matter what all you doctor look alikes have to say oh, and same to the actual doctors
anyway, you see a lot of litter and I feel bad for the litter so I pick up various, intriguing pieces and place them elsewhere – leaving a very odd breadcrumb trail for all of you, but so random that you won’t find me
they may, eventually, shut this site down because some insecure cop somewhere will take offense and call this taunting it's not... I'm telling a story - MY story through me... and I don't care if you're offended...
if they do, it's goodbye, maybe, who knows, I don't make plans
live IN 'da momenta...
the city busses are filled with ghosts dead people I see it in there eyes but it doesn't make me uncomfortable no human does I like humans so long as they're kind
for just a moment there I actually thought I was Hawkin' - but, I was mistaken I'm going to spend the rest of the day on the bus, maybe... (Did he just say that to entice us?) anyway, got's to go... we'll chat l8ter.
I still love you My family of butterflies whom I do adore but, I am not one of you not no no nnnnn' but, I still love all of 'ya
perhaps I panicked and perhaps I didn't but, the fact is, all of you did and are and you need to settle because I don't have a phone and you can't ping me I love all of you I am safe I slept in a bed last night and had a shower this AM
I went for a walk last night in the snow I was just trying to remember all I saw, but in this moment I have forgotten because I love to write and my ability to access this account now will be limited, but I will make posts as I (kicking) can
what I said yesterday is not a lie, save for one thing: I ran to something and not away from something and that is the difference and, no, the something I ran to was not a woman - not in that way... she's better than all ya'all
it is of interest that I am still on probation/parole and this will be considered absconding and, if caught, I would probably have to serve another 36 months or so, but prison don't scare me - been there done that x 3
I ate a bunch of white cheddar popcorn and chocolate donuts last night when I found... well, that's all I can say I wish I could say more but I am a fugitive and I must be very cautious with my words...
I am on foot only, no car, no cell phone, no computer... I am carrying no electronics at the moment and don't intend tOOoooo - pops taught me well how to read a map = love = no need for electrical shot through shit...
why did I do this? why run? Christ said: leave it all and that's what I did... Buddha said: desire no thing - I'm as close to naked as I've ever been and it feels amazing and I wish I could share it with you I can in a way - here..--mfjom;/s' through the looking glass
I took the bus into the city and will, hopefully, be able to post again l8ter, sorry no time for comments and such now as I have to be very aware
be yourself, unless you can be a pirate then always be a pirate
I ran away today. I got out of the car to use the restroom at the rest stop just before Exit 182 in Utah that goes to Moab. Oddly, after I ran down the hill and began walking down I-70, the exit appeared before me. So, I started down it, was stopped by a Utah State Police Officer, and he asked if I “…was the slide off…” because I thought slide off meant me, as in slide or ran down the hill. So, he was quite shocked when I told him that even though I broke up with my GF when I wrote that Pancake piece (because that was the official date), this morning was the 35000th breakup time since the official dat e (not a typo) because every time I see her face, I can see her heart break again because I know she is dying to get back together, but I just couldn’t because I needed to run….
This comes form you to you (no… wait) to you from a public library in CO, yes, I bought weed, yes, i’m smoking it, and I love you all.
stay tuned for more…
PS – I meditated in the public restroom on the toilet (no Lie) in the town I left from
and… I left a water bottle hidden in a secret cell in that bathroom…